Feeling helpless

Oh, before anything else, I'd like to say the one feeling helpless isn't me...It's someone else.

It's a personal matter, but I would just like to share something...I've never had any other friend who was so seemingly "hopeless" in my entire life. Really. He's had one single problem bothering him for almost three years now (this coming 2010 will mark its third year by estimation), and he still isn't showing signs of improvement. What that problem is, I have to withhold from you, but what I CAN tell you is...It's a problem many, many people have faced. Many overcame it and became stronger, but there is also a number of people who gave in to the depression this certain problem caused, and thus resulted in suicide.

Well, I don't mean to say that he's ENTIRELY helpless...But imagine. Many of his close friends, including myself, have given him advice. Personally, I've given him advice in several different perspectives. I've given advice supporting him and advice that went against him (if you know what I mean. Heck spare me the long length of explaining), and yet STILL...No actual improvement. Nothing. NOTHING.

It frustrates me, truly. I'm angry at him for not being able to help himself. I understand that it's selfish of me to feel this way, and I also understand that it could be quite a problem for him--a problem to big for him to take, and that I should be giving him support. But I'm no machine! I'm not some random computer that you can reprogram, or a cleverbot that can cook up random stuff in answer to your questions. I am a human being, and even I get tired. Especially when you're addressing to THE SAME PROBLEM for the past TWO YEARS.

I truly feel awful for him. I know that he has a rather rough family, and that he doesn't really have friends to be there for him (we're in college now you see, and he's a retainee so his batchmates have technically left him behind), but still...STILL. I'm sure you get my point, right?

But this is what I believe. It doesn't matter what kind of advice you get. It doesn't matter what kind of person you go to. Even if you talked to the most influential person in the world, it's NOTHING if you can't help yourself. Yes, the environment may influence you, but in the end, it's YOU who decides. This problem proved it to me. The past two years, I've gently--and I shall emphasize--GENTLY, carefully and perhaps even lovingly gave him advice, and yet still he's the same. It's only now that I responded with harshness. I thought of "slapping" him back to reality. I want him to realize "Wake up, boy! You are acting like a pathetic, stupid, annoying, SPOILED sore loser right now!!"...

Sigh. But I don't know. He's a sensitive idiot who is kinda suicidal. It really sucks like hell. But unfortunately, no matter how STUPID, SENSITIVE and SUICIDAL this annoying idiot can get, I guess I can never really bring myself to give up on him. He's a freaking brother to me for the love of crap.

Cheers.