There are times when one feels lonely because that person has no one to be with... But to be honest, I'm feeling something even worse... I have the friends that I've always wanted. The friends I've been waiting for... But there's just one person who I can't seem to go to properly right now... And it had to be Jesus. I dunno... Lately I've been having trouble coming to Him. There are times where I can't face Him... Yet, God is so good. The reason why I feel this way is because of how I treat one person... Although she apologized, and although I've forgiven her already, things just feel so different. Her attitude sort of annoys me at times... I can't bring myself to open up to her anymore. It's just so... Hard. But it's better than pretending, right? But... Because of this, it's starting to hinder my relationship with God... It's as if God is letting me know how painful it must be... It feels so hard... Sometimes my thoughts are just... Like, "How can I ever please Him...?" or "Why can't I follow Him...?" It feels so darn hard... I can't stand this. This is really burdening my heart... I believe I should tell her how I feel about her. It's not fair if she doesn't know coz she'll never know how to improve... I just can't stand this... Yet, it's so hard... For crying out loud, how hard can it be to confront one person? Well anyway... I'll do my best. Lord, I hope this will please you...notes:
- I thank the Lord for letting me know what's wrong.
- I hope I can do this... Lord, please help me.
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I feel the same thing for the same person. I mean... like I seriously don't feel comfortable with her anymore. When I think about the reason it just points out that I'm just being cold and selfish.
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