Must she leave...?

Hm...Man... A lot of things have been happening lately... One of my closest friends, let's call her EJ, is probably leaving... Things have become so complex here... So complex that her mom told her that it's probably best for her to go to Cebu and start again... At first we didn't agree on the idea, but... Now, Cebu seems good right now... I mean, I dunno. EJ started telling me about her real history... Her childhood. And I found out that we're miles and miles and M-I-L-E-S apart in terms of experience. She's experienced so much pain... So many things which she shouldn't have felt at that time. Looking back at it now, it was really God who gave me the words to say whenever she needed help... I mean, I've never experienced any of those things before, and... I dunno. It feels so weird... It's really God at work and no one else. I aint anyone special... I can't do anything by myself at all...

EJ... What'll happen when you're gone? Will the people involved move on? Or will they just dwell on their mistakes? I don't know... Sometimes I don't wanna know. It's either it gets better or worse... And I'm just speechless. When all's been said, what more is there to say?... There's really nothing I can do now, except pray for you... I dunno how things will be...

I guess she'll be leaving me too. Not exactly leaving me as in she'll never be my friend anymore, leaving me as in... She won't be around anymore. No more friend for me to go to when I'm experiencing attacks on faith... No more EJ for me to share my pain with (in terms of faith)... I'm not saying my circle of friends aren't like that, but... EJ has been in the faith for a very long time, and she experiences the same troubles I do. Heh... Although there are times where we fail each other, we're still buddies... Man, this is harder than I thought...

notes:

• Ugh... Sorry if that sounded emotional. I really am a bit emotional when it comes to friends...