Aftermath

Hm... Man, I was looking back at my life... I spent 7 full years friend-hopping, crying and feeling sorry for my self because I never found the right friends. I was so stupid... So weak. I kept saying all those useless things like "no one understands me..." Sheez, if I could travel to the past I would've slapped my past self's face and say, "Of course no one understands you, you idiot!! That's because you don't try to understand them!!" I feel so stupid. In my case, I felt misunderstood because I shut myself out from everyone. How could I expect to be understood if I don't LET others understand me? It all makes sense now... Man, I feel so bad... I could've made a difference... I wasted 50% of my childhood feeling so pathetic... Sigh. This is why I feel so envious when I hear my friends (Lance, Crescent, Fallon, etc) talking about their childhood. Saying stuff like, "hey, remember when this and that happened? It was so funny!" or "remember the time when I did whatever?" or stuff like that... All I could say was, "Man, I envy you guys... I wish I had friends like you guys earlier."... Heh, but after those 7 years, I met someone unique. Little did I know that our meeting was the start of a cycle that would eventually form a circle of friends... Yeah, it all started with Crescent. Then the chain continued on to Fallon, then connected to Lance, then from Lance to Ayame, then from Ayame to CD* and Sweet*. When the chain formed, something we call the "cycle" started. Loooong story... Anyway, we had to break the chains to form a bond--a bond that needed no chains to hold us together. Man, I am so happy to find them now... But dude... Just when I finally found the right circle, it'll somehow "disband"... That's because we'll be going our separate ways when we reach college. Crescent is going to another city that's miles away from here. Ayame and Fallon may be studying abroad... Lance will be studying in a different school, and so will CD and Sweet... To think that I can only spend two years with them... I wish I had found them sooner. That's my only regret... But They'll be the best friends I've ever found, and we'll all try to keep in touch with each other. I'll try my best to make the last two years with them memorable...

notes:

• Ahehe... Sorry, I feel like crying (toinkz)....
• CD and Sweet are all faux names. Privacy! Hehe.
• They're the best buddies ever...

Thank you Lord for these friends. Though I only have two years to be together with them, I'm as happy as ever. Thank you, Father...^^